These past two weeks have been hard. Everyday has brought up different challenges and situations that only require wisdom and discernment from God. But I woke up this morning feeling encouraged and some of the kids and are sitting with me now reading my bible, drinking my coffee, and just being here for me, the way I am also here for them.These are my favourite mornings, this is what makes even the harder times worth it 🙂
I have been praying a lot and God has given me peace about different things to confirm that “this is the way walk in it.” Yesterday one of our kids, one whom I am especially close with was upset by some other children and it seemed to hit a trigger. I will never know what exactly has happened, but that is okay because his heavenly father does. He was screaming on the floor sobbing, it was painful to look at. I instantly wanted to help, he doesn’t speak much english and I wasn’t sure how he would react to me. So I did all I knew how to do. Love him. I sat down next to him, pulled him on my lap and just loved him. His pain became my own, and as he cried I cried with him. It is amazing how human emotions can touch each other, and how someone’s pain can become your own when they are close to your heart. Eventually his tears stopped, and so did mine and we got up and went about our days.
The way I looked at this child is the same way God looks at us. He wants to love us, he wants to intercede and comfort us, but he can when we allow him to. Everyday I learn more than I thought I can. It is amazing how different this kind of learning is than what I have been used to doing in school. With more than a month in I am feeling encouraged, and feeling hopeful.
“But you, Lord are a compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.” Psalm 86:15